Tuesday, November 10, 2009

kristian

"you don't need someone to have sex with. what you need is someone to talk to."

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it was almost one in the morning when we decided to meet. i was not really up for any hook-ups last night that's why i declined two invitations earlier in the evening. but i figured that since i will be passing by your place on my way home, i'd just drop by to see if you were indeed the image that you are trying to project.

we had a funny set up. we never exchanged photos, not even phone numbers. the rule is simple. we'd both be on the agreed place at the agreed time and will only be waiting for five minutes should any one of us is late. it's fear i guess. we live in bordering communities and there is a big chance that we might know each other.

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fifteen minutes after meeting up, we found ourselves inside a small room. but i sense hesitation on your part. i couldn't help but wonder since just a few minutes before, you were so persistent to take me to bed. well, you never really had a hard time convincing me. you're hot. you have all the things i'm looking for in a random fuck. and i obliged.

still, i can sense that something is troubling you. so i asked. it was then that you told me the whole story.

***

you have a model for a partner and your relationship is on the rocks. after five years together, you want to get out. but you don't know how to break the news to him for you yourself do not really understand the reason behind your ill-feelings. that's why you're doing this. you wanted to fool around and you wanted him to know that you are fooling around so that when he finds out, he has a reason to leave you. yes, that would be too convenient on your part.

however, with your story, i've felt a certain sadness from you. it seems that you are still not sold to the idea of letting him go. with that, whatever fire within me has been extinguished. it's just not right to take advantage of your situation.

"you don't need someone to have sex with. what you need is someone to talk to."

and thus, we talked more about you. we talked about how you started. we talked about your good times together. as each story unfolds, i see your doubts slowly fading away. i see hope in your eyes once more.

***

it was almost four in the morning. as we bid each other goodbye, i can only hope that what we did inside that small room will make a big impact on your decisions. after all, you owe it to me. i gave up on a good fuck in exchange for a warm hug.

11 comments:

  1. parang partner ko yata na meet mo john, para lang, same yata kwento niya sa partner ko

    sana sinabi na niya kung ayaw na niya, duwag pala siya eh

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  2. Save for the hot body and the good looks, I can see myself in your partner's shoes one year ago. I was in a state of rebellion back then and the reasons your guy told you was the exact same reasons why I fooled around.

    I'm happy that you've taken the higher road.

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  3. Well, john stanley, I hope xtian is wrong and it's not his cheating beau you stumbled onto. Otherwise, this could get messy.

    And I'm all out of popcorn.

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  4. John Stan: kaya pala shining through ang ningning mo sa twitter hahahaha

    Rude: i'll bring the beer.

    and i think i still have a stash of nukeable popcorn in my pantry lolz

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  5. i gave up on a good fuck in exchange for a warm hug ****** sobrang cheessy.
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    The start of a new beginning? who knows? everything that starts well ends well.

    lol.

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  6. what's with all the breaking up all over the web? sigh it's supposed to be Christmas.

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  7. @xtian: minsan, sa takot nating makasakit ng damdamin, we hide the truth. but we fail to realize that most of the time, this is more painful.

    @galen: i'm glad i did as well. i know that if i follow what my other head dictates, it will just be more troublesome.

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  8. @rudeboy: if the boy is xtian's partner, then xtian is the model boyfriend. hmmmm, i think i'd like to do him instead. jowk! ;)

    @ternie: now isn't this more exciting to see?

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  9. @pilyo: pilyo ka nga talaga. come here and be spanked! ;)

    @engel: ipakilala mo na daw kasi sa amin para meron naman inspiration ang mga tao sa blogspace, hehehe.

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  10. "i gave up on a good fuck in exchange for a warm hug." -- i likez! :)

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  11. hah! kung ako yun, baka nasipa ko pa siya hahahahaha


    joke lang... ang bait mo naman friend....:)

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