blogger friends often ask me if jason knows about my blog. most of the time, i'd say no and offer this explanation:
"there are a lot of things in my blog that are not very easy to digest. you know very well of the crazy things that i did before. but unlike you who are all very much accepting of such things, jason is different. he's sheltered and might not be able to understand that one person can go through such a phase. it is different from your point of view, knowing that you have followed my journey all this time. but to someone who will be reading me for the first time, without so much a grasp of what lies beneath each entry, it's very easy to pass judgment. of course, i look forward to the day that everything will be revealed to him, perhaps bit by bit as our relationship progresses. but until then, john stan will remain a mystery."
then that day finally came when this blog has been revealed and my biggest fears realized.
for now, jason knows.
and like any other person with whom such truth had been hidden, he's not very pleased.